Soooo, I'm a healer (a pretty good one, actually :), and spend a large portion of my life studying, learning and experiencing pretty 'out there, woo woo' stuff. But it’s taken me a loooooong time to really fully trust the things I’m learning and experiencing. To believe they’re really real.To believe that there are energetic bodies of consciousness far more intelligent and wise than us guiding and helping to directing our lives from a higher realm. This has been challenging despite the OVERWHELMING amount of evidence I've received, starting at a very young age.

I think I’m most of the way there, but it still feels like maybe I’m just making it all up sometimes. Or it’s all a big trick and someone’s going to jump out of the closet and yell, ‘GOTCHA!’ Until recently. I've had a few experiences lately that really cannot (and will not despite my best efforts) be ignored and I wanted to share this in the hopes that it may help those of you having 'weird’ experiences to set down the doubt once and for all and know that you're not alone and not a weirdo if you experience these types of things too.

Sometimes diving into our spirituality can be incredibly isolating when no one believes in the experiences and things you're learning about. The looks of ..heh?! and the whispered ‘she's completely lost it’ looks are plentiful. I'm certainly no stranger to this.

Anywho, the experience to which I'm referring is that I've come to realize that my computer (or the spirit of my computer) is communicating with me. I know.

Last year, I was in a relationship with a guy during which MANY of my insecurities were coming up. My computer, on three or four occasions started to play the song 'Cold, Cold Feet' by Tracy Chapman all by itself. At this point, the doubt was pretty strong so I didn't really pay much attention to it and just thought there was something wrong with my computer.

The next time it had something to say to me was about three months ago when, after months and months of doing my own healing (along with the rest of the planet with all these crazy planetary transits) my computer decided that the song it wanted to play was 'Same Old Brand New You' by A1. Honestly, I've never even heard of them and have no idea how this song ended up on my computer, but there it was, 4 or 5 times playing it's little heart out all by itself. At this point, I did notice the name of the song, and thought, ‘Huh. That’s interesting’.

Round three of weirdness happened just last weekend. I had a few girls over for a little angelic gathering and we did a guided drum journey meditation from a CD. About an hour later, the drums started playing again. ON THEIR OWN. Next day, casually eating lunch and there are the drums again! Playing away on my computer in the other room!!! GAHHH! This one got me. Goosebumps. The ominous drum sound totally freaked me out. Which was necessary I'm sure as the powers that be were going, 'gaaahd this girl is thick. We're gonna have to amp up the scary factor so she starts to pay attention'. Fine. Point taken.

The final (so far) message that really drove the point home was that I was home sick last week from work. As I do, I was checking in with my higher self using PSYCH-K and Reiki to see what the messages were for me so that I could heal and feel better. The messages were abundantly clear that I was working too hard and needed to take a break and have some fun. I shit you not, later that day, my computer started to play Cindy Lauper's Girls Just Want to Have Fun. Holy Mother Mary and Jesus.

So to sum up, I guess I’m now in a spiritual and quite enlightening relationship with my computer. I've finally accepted that this is my weird life now, and that my electronics are guiding my way through life and that this shit is VERY VERY REAL.

If anyone else is having conversations with their computers, or alarm clocks, ovens or fridges, you're not alone. I got you. 👊✨